I think, I feel, I care

Sigh..

I am forced to wonder whether my "friends" are really my friends. Are they the ones i became friends with? our environment hasnt changed.They dont seem to be the same, not necessarily in a good way. I havent changed, not much atleast. If I have, then I know I have a few friends who will come and tell me I have changed. I know for sure because it has happened before.

So, it seems logical to assume that indeed it is them who have changed. Incomprehensible,almost childish anger, broken promises without guilt and what not. So much seems different now from every perspective. What makes it worse is when they pretend not to be doing something when they are(I say with proof) and further deny it when questioned. When I become friends with someone, I give myself. I am honest about everything. If theres something wrong with my friend or something different, positive or negative, I let them know. Thats what I believe to be friendship.I dont know why there is this hesitance to speak to me about me! I might be fiery but afterall, isnt that a part of me? Did you not become my friend knowing i am so?Are you willing to overlook all my other qualities with just this one? Even then, I dont understand.I am happy with myself. I know there are lots of areas I need to work upon but as of today, I wouldnt want myself to be any different. Then why do these people who call themselves my friends expect me to be different? Do they actually think I would change because they thought I should but couldnt come up to me and tell me at my face and instead use a third person's name? Maybe if they had told me or tell me directly that they are unhappy with such and such behaviour of mine, I might consider it. Afterall, I too can go wrong and not realise it.

I dont know whether they under-estimate me or have over-estimated themselves.

I just hope its the latter.

Bombs here. Bombs there.
Here a bomb, there a bomb,
Everywhere bomb bomb
Old Dear terrorists have lots of bombs
EE AA EE AA OO

Sigh.. I suppose generations hence that would be an excerpt from the new version of Old McDonald had a farm.

Lives being lost.
Fear induced.

More than the first, I think its the second thing which gives them the power to continue. People fear for their lives, their own and that of their loved ones.Life as we know stops for a day.

I didnt want to stop. I was forced to. My family's love bound me like none other. How much longer are we going to let them-the attackers feel we are afraid? When are we going to go up and show them there is a lot more to us? Please. I truly regret the lives lost. I wish we could all stand up and do justice to their unnecessary deaths.Let the attackers know that they have no control over our free spirits.

Frustrating me further is how the political parties are trying to make it a political issue!! KNOCK KNOCK @!$#%@& People are afraid. People have lost their loved ones.People have lost their property and what do you do? Blame the ruling party for lack of security measures, foul play and what not.

Pathetic.

If things continue like this, our future is BOMBED.

I am not willing to accept it.
If not for my family, I would be out there fighting loud and clear in anyway I can.Unfortunately, my respect and love for my family forces me to restrict myself to my blog.

First- A confession.

I seriously doubt if wars(Referring to wars using weapons-not the peaceful wars for changes and environment) are even in the realm of moral debate. Morality, once again is a highly subjective matter. What seems moral and justified to me may seem otherwise to you and vice-versa.

Assuming wars do fall under the realm of moral debate,I would strongly say that a war's so called morality lies in the cause of the war, the logical reasoning behind waging the war. Most of the times, I am forced to accept that they are illogical by my reasoning and hence I come to my stand that wars are immoral.Here are some of my thoughts on the matter.

Take for instance the India-Pakistan Kargil War which started because certain Pakistani infiltration into the Indian part of Kashmir was observed by the Indians but denied by the Pakistanis.From there several reasons have been put up as to why the war must continue to be waged of which self-respect is one.I present a few reasons why I feel it shouldnt continue to be waged.

1. You want the land, for its beauty,for its people. What are you going to do with a land which now no longer holds the splendour it once did all thanks to your incessant bombing? Whom are you going to rule if you wipe out the population or drive them away from their homes?

2. People in the armed forces may have pledged their lives in service to the nation. Do remember, they too are humans with needs,wants,desires and more importantly they too are a part of a family. Think about the person and their family.How many times have we heard of fathers never seeing their child because they lost their lives fighting. The emotional turmoil they(the soldiers and their families) go through is heart wrenching when thought of empathetically. The lives lost,the hurting misery caused and felt- does it justify the end which none can see as of now?

3. I agree war and military operations are a huge expenditure and some even consider it an industry. Imagine if all the money invested in the war was used for other purposes which directly affect us, the commoners how much more growth we will attain.

4.Many say they sleep soundly in their homes with the comfort of knowing they are well protected by the defense forces. I question that lot, if you proclaim so, have you ever shed a single tear for every life lost there for your sound sleep? I assure you, if you had you would be crying most of your days.

5. Immediately comes an argument, do you expect us not to develop our armed forces, not to improve our defense standards? I would like to clarify saying I say use defense as defense not as an attacking mechanism. Issues are bound to arise, give it a try the peaceful civilised way.After all what justice would it be if we call ourselves the civilised species if we are going to resort to barbaric,animalistic ways of resolving conflicts? War will not solve everything. Most probably, the issue would only snowball into some meaningless battle of forces.Sometimes, the real issue lays forgotten.

I have taken an example close home but I would say the reasons I have put forth as to why wars are immoral and injust in my opinion are applicable to any war situation existing in the world.

We have often heard of "Its the journey(means) which counts, not the end." Wars as a mean of achieving an end, does not, in my opinion ever justify the end. More often than not, the end is not what you had thought it would be.

Life may be a game.Mind you, Its a game alright- A game in which you cant give life to a dead character. You get to play it only once you have got to play smart and well.

WHAT IS GOING ON??!!

This year definitely has babies in the news!!

A couple of months ago came the news of a lady delivering her baby in the train washroom and realising it only when she comes back to her seat. Miraculously the baby lived, unhurt. Now its called "Rajdhani Radha" in memory of her birth.

Right.

Hardly a month later comes another toilet baby. But this episode unlike the other one evoked fury and disgust in me. A 11th Grade girl whose parents are doctors apparently, says she didnt even know she was pregnant and was shocked to deliver the baby in her house's washroom. Sorry, girl but you seriously need to keep an eye on your personal hygiene!The parents remark irked me more- "Our daughter has always been plump, we didnt realise she was pregnant, else we would have definitely done something about it." I'm stumped.

Sometime in between, babies got swapped and parents fighting that "the boy baby" was theirs. ARGH!! I so ache to ask the parents-"Whats wrong with a girl baby u fool? you are a girl yourself!!" Unfortunately i cant.

Next, on June 30th, Kolkata, India a woman gave birth to a premature baby boy who was declared to be a still born only to be found alive 6 hours later by a child specialist. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE???!!! As if that aint bad enough, the Chief defends his staff. Mister, what happened to your doctor on call? Why arent your nurses efficient? "Maybe the signs of life were too feeble to notice" What?! Lets say a dumb person has a heart attack. Are you going to say, sorry, we didnt hear him so we couldnt treat him?Duh!! he cant talk remember! What crap are you people dishing out?! To think that they think that this country of such huge population is gonna accept rubbish, THINK AGAIN. Atleast i wont! Seeing the Media reports(even if exagerrated) most of the country aint okay with it either!

Sigh..these four were the ones which got media attention. Goodness knows how many more..